It has been a difficult day my Lord to say the lease, because when others seem to have forgotten you and what you long for is someone to reach out to say I do care, and truly mean it. For someone else who seems all they want to do is to judge you and you seem to say to yourself, they are not walking in my shoes to understand this deep pain of mine. So I open up your scriptures to read the following words that seem to ring so true for me today.
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me all day long, “Where is your God?”. These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God under the protection of the “Mighty One” with shouts of joy and praise, among the festive throng. Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. My soul is downcast within me, therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan the heights of Hermon–from Mount Mizar. Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls, all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me–a prayer to the God of my life. I say to God my Rock, Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy? My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me saying to me all day long, “Where is your God.?” Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
Help me in this holy time, at your feet, to pour my soul out to you. Enable me to be transparent. I surrender every burden, fear, question, and emotion. Empty me of myself. Free me from all the clutter in my heart and mind. Consume me with Your Spirit now and everyday of my life.
Grace and Peace to You My Friends