Today is the day in which I want to celebrate both of my daughter’s birthday. You both started off together in my womb and how excited I was to become a first time mom. However, that was not what was meant to be for my daughter Abriella Grace which means one who is derived from God or the pillar of strength, and your middle name to me stands for God’s grace to all of us. I have mourn for you more in this past year because of what we have learn through your sister Victoria and her health. She always knew that you did exist but for me and your dad doctors never told us everything that I had gone through carrying you girls. There is a part of me who is so angry because I never got to hold you in my arms, never had the chance to sing a lullaby as I took a turn rocking your sister to sleep and kiss you good-night. There is a also a part of me who feels that all the wonderful things that I did do with your sister I never had a chance with you. However, even through I never did hold you in my arms I will always hold you in my heart, and that you do live through your sister each and everyday. I also know that our Lord and Savior will always hold you in His arms because I cannot at this time but someday I will.
Victoria, the Lord bless me on this day many years ago when you were born. I always believe that I am the one who is bless because God choose me to be your mom. He has given me such strength beyond any words I could possibly say especially because as your have grown up you have gotten sicker. I have always ask why my child has to be so sick with rare diseases and cancer. However, I have seen the ministry that you do with being an advocate for others. You have always put others before yourself, you are compassionate, loving, caring, and so much more. You have also been my cheerleader in becoming a pastor. I have always been bless when I would see you out in the congregation however, as you have decline you are unable to be there in person.
I do not know what the future holds for you, however, I know that our Lord will be walking with you. I do pray for less pain that you have to deal with each and everyday. As I have said to you so many times in the past the only thing if I could I would change in you is for you to be healthy. God truly bless me on my own birthday and that was becoming your mom. There is a children’s book called Momma do you love me that I would read to you when you were a little girl. I love you now and forever, forever you will be my Victoria.
Happy Birthday to both of you Victoria Frances and Abriella Grace