Another Jewel In Heaven (Guess Blogger)

I Like to introduce to all of you Jennifer Wagner:  Today, I am a stay at home wife, dividing my time between taking care of our home, directing church outreach, and blogging about life lessons, joyful living, and Christian values. When I’m not writing, I am typically curled up with my husband, binge watching Netflix, drinking caramel coffee, or snuggling our two cats, Basil and Mocha Rose! Welcome to our married life! We’re so glad you have chosen to join us as we laugh and cry together in this amazing life adventure!

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After the loss of our sweet babies in April, J and I were hopeful to try again. After just a few months, we were excited that our dream may be coming true. The cravings and mood swings were in full force. I was sleepy, nauseous, hungry, hormonal, bloated, and I had to pee about every two hours. It seemed like a wonderfully miserable time.

And then the bleeding started. We were bummed, but thought we’d just wait another month… Until the night I called J into the bathroom. The pain, blood, and contractions were clear. We had also lost this sweet baby. The loss of this child was such a shock. After all, we weren’t quite sure yet if I was even pregnant.

This baby was supposed to be our rainbow baby, but yet we’ve collected another jewel in Heaven. Lucy Grace, Arden Micah, and Orion Sage. Three….. three babies in Heaven. Our little family.

It’s been just over a week since the loss of our child. The raw emptiness still takes my breath away, as I sob and gasp for air. J still holds me as I drift off into space, not really knowing what to do with myself. Getting out of bed, eating, and connecting with people have become chores in and of themselves. J and I go through the motions. We laugh and talk, work and visit, but inside we both feel numb, empty… like something crucial is missing. We’ve lost our joy. We’ve lost our confidence and security. We’ve lost the excitement of trying to have a family.

Our first miscarriage four months ago broke our hearts. This time, it carries fear and doubt, alongside the pain and shock. Do we dare try again? How can we continue to hope, after this?

After a rough week of falling away from each other in our grief, it became clear that now more than ever, we need to lean on our Savior and each other… And so we talked. We held each other, as poured our hearts out to the Lord and to each other. We named our child, Lucy Grace. We went on a spontaneous date. We came together and asked the Lord for help. It’s still fresh and raw. I still don’t know what to do with myself. I still fell numb and broken and empty and vulnerable. I still break out in sobbing tears. My hormones and baby belly are still reminders of what was. But through it all, the Lord is putting us back together again…

15 Scriptures to lean on after miscarriage, when the grief seems unbearable and all seems gone…

  1. 1 Samuel 1:27-28
    I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.” And he worshiped the Lord there.
  2. Job 11:13-19
    Yet if you devote your heart to Him and stretch out your hands to Him, if you put away the sin that is in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then, free of fault, you will lift up your face; you will stand firm and without fear. You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning. You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety. You will lie down, with no one to make you afraid, and many will court your favor.
  3. Jeremiah 29:11-12
    For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.
  4. Romans 12:12
    Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
  5. Exodus 23:25-26
    Worship the Lord your God, and His blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you, and none will miscarry or be barren in your land. I will give you a full life span.
  6. Judges 13:2-3, 24
    A certain man of Zorah, named Manoah, from the clan of the Danites, had a wife who was childless, unable to give birth. The angel of the Lord appeared to her and said, “You are barren and childless, but you are going to become pregnant and give birth to a son. … The woman gave birth to a boy and named him Samson. He grew and the Lord blessed him.
  7. Matthew 5:4
    Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
  8. Genesis 8:11-14
    Abraham and Sarah were already very old, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, “After I am worn out and my lord is old, will I now have this pleasure?” Then the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Will I really have a child, now that I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return to you at the appointed time next year, and Sarah will have a son.”
  9. Luke 1:7, 13-15
    But they were childless because Elizabeth was not able to conceive, and they were both very old. But the angel said to him: “Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to call him John. He will be a joy and delight to you, and many will rejoice because of his birth, for he will be great in the sight of the Lord. He is never to take wine or other fermented drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit even before he is born.
  10. Psalm 37:4
    Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
  11. John 16:22-24
    So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. In that day you will no longer ask Me anything. Very truly I tell you, My Father will give you whatever you ask in My name. Until now you have not asked for anything in My name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
  12. Psalm 119:49-50
    Remember your word to your servant, for You have given me hope. My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.
  13. Hebrews 10:35-36
    So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised.
  14. Hebrews 11:1
    Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
  15. 2 Thessalonians 1:11
    With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of His calling, and that by His power He may bring to fruition your every desire for goodness and your every deed prompted by faith.

 

Thank you Jennifer for your blog post, you can also find more from Jennifer at The Newlywed Chronicles.com

 

 

 

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Hold Me Together (Guess Blogger)

Let us welcome back Pami Clark https://pamijosword.wordpress.com/

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We look at this Son and see the God who cannot be seen. We look at this Son and see God’s original purpose in everything created. For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisible, rank after rank after rank of angels—everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. He was there before any of it came into existence and holds it all together right up to this moment. And when it comes to the church, he organizes and holds it together, like a head does a body.
He was supreme in the beginning and—leading the resurrection parade—he is supreme in the end. From beginning to end he’s there, towering far above everything, everyone. So spacious is he, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross.
Colossians 1:15-20

When I think about all the things God “holds together”, I get overwhelmed.
I mean, He holds
EVERYTHING.
TOGETHER.
He holds the oceans in their place. If He didn’t, the waters would swallow us all up.
He holds the planets together, ever so delicately…
Because one wrong move of a planet to left or to the right would mean instant destruction of the entire human race!!!!!

So, knowing how He holds such massive and important things like oceans and planets in their perfect places….
Should make it fairly easy for us to trust Him to hold US together, too!
But I know I often don’t.
Instead, I feel most days that I am simply FALLING APART….
Not being “held together” at all!
I feel as “broken and dislocated” as I could possibly be.
I remember watching the movie, “The Impossible”.

t was the story of a family of five, who are tragically separated by a fierce tsunami in Thailand in 2004.
The furious rage of that storm was CONTROLLED by God.
If you lived through that , or watched the movie, it doesn’t SEEM like God is in control of ANY of it! So many people died, or were lost forever.
But yet, it was very clear that God DID have the power and control to rescue each member of this family, and untie them in the end.

It looked “IMPOSSIBLE “!
But with God,
There is no such thing.
So, today…
If you are broken…
If you feel like the things or people in your life are tearing you apart
Hold on to the God,
Who is literally, figuratively, and physically

Holding You!

 

 

Do Unto Others (Guess Blogger)

My name is Pami Clark, and I’m married with two beautiful, feisty kids, ages 10 and 7. Two weeks after giving birth to my second child, Micah, I had a massive stroke. I remember lying on the floor, and feeling so confused as to why I couldn’t move my left arm or my left leg. I remember my 3 year-old screaming for her mommy who collapsed right in front of her, and I remember the ambulance, and then…
I woke up a few days later in the ICU and discovered that the doctors were shocked I had survived.
But I soon learned that I had lost quite a bit of function on my left side, my cognition was badly damaged, and my memory was severely effected. My short term memory was pretty much gone, and I could not remember much of anything from childhood through college.
I have gained some strength on the weakened side, and am blessed that I am able to walk and talk, and I realize I’m one of very few stroke survivors who can say that! But the most devastating outcome of the stroke for me, was my memory. I had no idea who I was! It is such a scary thing to happen to someone, but I CLUNG to God. I hadn’t forgotten HIM!
I started my blog, Back to the Beginning, about a year later. It started out as a means to “re-learn ” and “re-study” the Bible. However, it soon turned into an outlet for me to express very honestly the struggle of my journey with pain, of many kinds.
My most sincere prayer is that my words will encourage even just one.

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Therefore, whatever you want men to do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.
Matthew 7:12
And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them likewise.
Luke 6:31
I’m sure I heard a version of this verse many times as a kid.

I think it was used as a tool to convince me and my sisters to get along with one another.
But there really is so much more to this thought than just “getting along” with each other.
So many times, I feel like I’m lacking something.
Sometimes, I feel lonely…
Or discouraged,

Misunderstood,
Ignored,
Invisible,
Unappreciated,
Undervalued….
This list goes on and on,
For EACH of us, I’m guessing.

What do we do when we are in that place of disappointment?
It’s one of the most important questions we can ask ourselves, because if we follow our feelings, we will oftentimes follow them right over a cliff.
Anger, bitterness, and resentment are just a few of the things we will find at the bottom of that cliff.
This verse guides us in the right direction.

Feeling lonely?

Say hello to someone new. Invite somebody out to lunch. Be sure to include an invitation for me, too, because I LOVE lunch. Pay attention to others who appear to be lonely, too.
Feeling discouraged?
Send a note of encouragement to a friend. Compliment lots of people…. SINCERELY!
Feeling misunderstood?
Take time to really listen to others. Put yourself in their shoes, and walk around in them for awhile.

Feeling ignored?
Pay ATTENTION to others!
Feeling invisible?
Open YOUR OWN EYES, and love on other “invisible” people.
Feeling broken?
Know that ALL of us are broken! So, be GENTLE with EVERYONE!
When we give to others all the things WE desperately need, His Word promises we will greatly rewarded.(Luke6:35)
I learned years ago, that all of those feelings we have sometimes lead us to believe we are the “only ones” who feel them.
No greater mistake can be made, if you ask me!
Your feelings aren’t special.
Your feelings certainly aren’t unique!
So, instead of wondering why no one notices us in our darkest moments….

Notice Somebody else
Because in doing so,
You will, in some crazy way,
Because in doing so,
You will, in some crazy way,
Get exactly what you need.
“Do Unto Others”….For REAL!!

 

 

 

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No Compromise

Matthew 6c.pngOur God is a holy God, and He makes no compromise with sin, He doesn’t tolerate it at all! In this day and age, even the idea of punishment is becoming outdated. Children must not be punished anymore because it infringes on their personal right. But sin remains sin before God and we pay a high price for it. Now the sinful human grabs at straws. Is God not merciful? He is after all, love. But He is also just and holy! We must not play His holiness off against His love. Of course God is merciful, The fact that we are alive is proof of God’s mercy. But His love is by no means weak, it is strong and holy. It gives much but also demands much. God is merciful, but God is also just! God is just, but God is also merciful! Do you see the difference between the two concepts? Come with me to Golgotha, there the impossible became possible! There the tension was broken when Jesus was broken. Their righteousness and mercy flowed into one.

Jesus had to die for the sake of God’s righteousness. He paid the highest price so that we, the rebels, could be set free. He endured God’s wrath that we could experience His love. He was forsaken against by God so that we could know God, never to be forsaken again. He carried our curse so that we might be showered with blessings. The message of Golgotha is: God is righteous! God is Love! That is why Jesus teaches us to pray, “Forgive us our trespass, or sins or some Christians may say debts, it all means the same, we have all sin and have fallen short of the Glory of God. But through God’s love that he sent His one and only son Jesus into this world to die for all sinners (all of mankind) so that we will never be separated from God.

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Grace and Peace to You My Friends

God’s Love

Ephesians 2.jpgThrough the mountains be shaken and the hills removed, yet God’s unfailing Love for us will never be shaken nor God’s covenant of Peace be removed. Nothing on earth seems as enduring or immovable as huge, majestic mountains. When you stand on their heights–breathing that air, you can almost smell eternity. Yet God’s Love and Peace are even more enduring than the greatest mountain on earth! Think deeply about God’s unfailing love for you. No matter how needy you are or how many times you think you fail God, his supply of Love for you will never run low. Another meaning of unfailing is constant. God does not love us more on days when you perform well, nor does he loves us less when we seem to failed miserably. God’s Love is more persistent, invariable, and steadfast that you can comprehend. Open your heart to received this amazing gift in full measure. My covenant of Peace is a sovereign gift of peace, and it is utterly secure. God can no more withdraw this blessing from you than he could stop being who he is and that is the Great I Am! Moreover God himself is our Peace, so the more intimately you know him, the more you or I can experience his unfathomable Peace. Take time, take the time to draw near to him, seek God and God alone in the moments of your life. Come freely into his presence even when you are feeling bad about yourself. Remember who I am, the Lord who has compassion on you, you are my beloved child.

 

Through the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord, who has compassion on you.                                                      ( Isaiah 54:10)

 

Lift up your eyes to the heavens, look at the earth beneath, the heavens will vanish like smoke, the earth will wear out like a garment and its inhabitants die like flies. But my salvation will last forever, my righteousness will never fail.

( Isaiah 51:6)

 

Grace and Peace to You My Friends

Brokenhearted

Psalm 147.jpgSo many times in our lives we have a broken-heart,rather it is from a relationship such as friends, marriage, children, a job, or any kind of a situation and anything that involves another person (persons) that has left us feeling broken inside. For me when I am going thru those difficult times where it seems the world is crashing down on me I have learn to open the word of God and I begin to search the scriptures and begin asking God for directions and to easy the pain that I feel deep inside of me, even when I myself do not fully understand everything. This is when I open to the book of Psalm where King David had written many of the chapters in Psalm.

Praise the Lord, How good it is to sing praises to our God, how pleasant and fitting to praise him! The builds up Jerusalem, he gathers the exiles of Israel. He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He determines the number of stars and call them each by name. Great is our Lord and mighty in power, his understanding has no limit. The Lord sustains the humble but cats the wicked to the ground. Sing to the Lord with grateful praise, make music to our God on the harp. He covers the sky with clouds, he supplies the earth with rain and makes grass grow on the hills. He provides food for the cattle and for the young ravens when they call. His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of the warrior; the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.            Psalm 147:1-11

I do not know or can I truly understand everything that happens to me or the people I have come to know and love. But this I do know is that God knows and sees all, he knows how many hair strands that is on our head, their is nothing that has happen or will happen that he doesn’t know about. His unfailing love for his children is so hard for us to even comprehend, I can see all around in my own life his love for me as his own child, and for that I continue to Praise His Name. When I realize that my heart has become broken even for a short while ( a season) I begin to sing Praise of Worship to God and God along, so that any problem and all my problems seems to be so small, and when I do this my Joy for God once again returns to my soul.

 

Grace and Peace to You My Friend