The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles; but the Lord delivers him from them all.
As I begin to write this blog post it is a difficult one to write and hopefully not too many tears will fall from my eyes. The last few days of 2017 has been a difficult one filled with many emotions that I thought I had bury deep within my soul, and hoping that they all would stay buried but guess what they did not. I received a telephone call from one of my sister and when I picked up my phone I was told too listen what she needed to say. At first I thought it was about her since her health has not been the best, however that was not the news I would received (yes I was happy it wasn’t her) She went on to tell me that she received a call to tell her that our father had died and that he was living in the state of Utah, and his wishes was to be cremated and all of his children had to agree with his wishes. I was dumb founded because my dad had walked out on his family many years ago and none of his children knew why. Our mother died while we all were growing up from cancer and her and our dad were bless with seven children. I can truly say that our mom was the glue of our family and that the family fell apart after her death. I am sure that their were many secrets that our mom kept from us children to protect us. My dad did remarried a year after mom died and had another child, as well as other children from affairs, however we never had enough time to mourn for our mom, since he was engage four months after our mom died. This is how and why I began to write, it was a way for me to cope with my feelings and a way to reach out to God in trying to understand everything. My father had hurt his children in ways that a father shouldn’t of, and I would rather not share them here. However, I was bless to be able to be apart of my best girlfriend’s family as another daughter for them after my father informed me he wish I was never born, I look like my mother, and I was not wanted. I have been searching for years especially God’s word for being accepted for who I am regardless of my past sins, present or even my future sins. The one thing I was always grateful was that my parents raised me and my sibling in a Christian church and I knew God loved ME. Their are many scriptures to remind me and you that no matter what you have gone through in your life, we have a Heavenly Father that loves us for who we are, and his love is unconditional. Praise His Name he does. This is one of the many reasons that I have always been involved in a church and why I am in journey with Christ to become a pastor. You see their are so many people that are broken inside and they just like me need to reminded and reassured how much they are loved by our Creator. And that Jesus Christ can restore our brokenness and change us from the inside out. Below are some of the scriptures that have help me thru the difficult times and hopefully they will and can help you.
See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands. Isaiah 49:16
Through the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord, who has compassion on you. Isaiah 54:10
The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. Psalm 145:18
Nothing can separate you or me from God’s love. When we trust him as our Savior, he united us with him in eternal matrimony. Many things threaten to rip apart this holy bound-principalities and powers, controlling people, different circumstances-but nothing can succeed not even death. As I read once again in the New Testament in the book of Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height or depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. I truly believe these words that the Apostle Paul wrote and which was inspire by God because he has never and will never break a promise to any of his children.
Grace and Peace to You My Friends