God Understands Our Pain

Psalm 34.pngThe righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles; but the Lord delivers him from them all.

Psalm 34:17-19

As I begin to write this blog post it is a difficult one to write and hopefully not too many tears will fall from my eyes. The last few days of 2017 has been a difficult one filled with many emotions that I thought I had bury deep within my soul, and hoping that they all would stay buried but guess what they did not. I received a telephone call from one of my sister and when I picked up my phone I was told too listen what she needed to say. At first I thought it was about her since her health has not been the best, however that was not the news I would received (yes I was happy it wasn’t her) She went on to tell me that she received a call to tell her that our father had died and that he was living in the state of Utah, and his wishes was to be cremated and all of his children had to agree with his wishes. I was dumb founded because my dad had walked out on his family many years ago and none of his children knew why. Our mother died while we all were growing up from cancer and her and our dad were bless with seven children. I can truly say that our mom was the glue of our family and that the family fell apart after her death. I am sure that their were many secrets that our mom kept from us children to protect us. My dad did remarried a year after mom died and had another child, as well as other children from affairs, however we never had enough time to mourn for our mom, since he was engage four months after our mom died. This is how and why I began to write, it was a way for me to cope with my feelings and a way to reach out to God in trying to understand everything. My father had hurt his children in ways that a father shouldn’t of, and I would rather not share them here. However, I was bless to be able to be apart of my best girlfriend’s family as another daughter for them after my father informed me he wish I was never born, I look like my mother, and I was not wanted. I have been searching for years especially God’s word for being accepted for who I am regardless of my past sins, present or even my future sins. The one thing I was always grateful was that my parents raised me and my sibling in a Christian church and I knew God loved ME. Their are many scriptures to remind me and you that no matter what you have gone through in your life, we have a Heavenly Father that loves us for who we are, and his love is unconditional. Praise His Name he does. This is one of the many reasons that I have always been involved in a church and why I am in journey with Christ to become a pastor. You see their are so many people that are broken inside and they just like me need to reminded and reassured how much they are loved by our Creator. And that Jesus Christ can restore our brokenness and change us from the inside out.  Below are some of the scriptures that have help me thru the difficult times and hopefully they will and can help you.

See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands.          Isaiah 49:16

Through the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord, who has compassion on you.                                      Isaiah 54:10

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. Psalm 145:18

Nothing can separate you or me from God’s love. When we trust him as our Savior, he united us with him in eternal matrimony. Many things threaten to rip apart this holy bound-principalities and powers, controlling people, different circumstances-but nothing can succeed not even death. As I read once again in the New Testament in the book of Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height or depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.  I truly believe these words that the Apostle Paul wrote and which was inspire by God because he has never and will never break a promise to any of his children.

Grace and Peace to You My Friends

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Brokenness

Isaiah 54-1.pngI know that some of you as you are reading these words that I have written, you are feeling broken within your heart. There are so many reasons that through out our lives that we feel this way, and one way is when you put your trust in someone or something instead of God and I too am guilt of this one. Too many times you open yourselves to trust another thinking that they have your best interest for you that you will not get hurt and somehow in the end we truly do .And when we do get disappointed or crush inside I know that all I want to do is run away to never be found again. I truly want to give up and not go forward why because as humans we are afraid of being hurt over and over again.  As I was going thru the different scriptures that I have highlight I come across these words from the book of Isaiah 54: 10 Through the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed.” says the Lord, who has compassion on you. Once I read these words than read them again, I cry out to the Lord why Lord what have I done to be hurt in this way once again. My heart knows that through my brokenness I can draw closer to God. I am able to open up to him and simply pour out my heart knowing that he does understand my pain. His compassion for me is overflowing, and when I do open myself up to the Risen Lord his peace will fill my spirit that transcends understanding. I need to stop trying to figure everything out on my own. Instead, I need to lean on him, letting my head rest on his shoulders, and while I am resting I need to know that he will be watching over me and all that concerns me. I need to continue to trust in the Master in the depths of my being where he lives in union with me. Jesus healing work in me is most effective when I am trusting him. As I read these words more than once from Isaiah I need to remember how he has compassion for me. No matter how desperate my circumstances can be, the one thing I can always count on is Jesus unfailing love for me.

 

Grace and Peace to You My Friends

Why Should I Forgive

Colossians 3 F.jpgTherefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.                                                              (Colossians 3:12-13)

This has been a difficult thing for all humans to do is to forgive someone after being hurt, and more important to forgive ourselves for any and all of our short comings, and when we did something wrong. As I was reading a post from rethink church they share the following words, of why we should forgive. By forgiving someone we are choosing to let go of our pain in which we do carry and sometimes we carry that pain a long time. It is never easy to forgive anyone however when we ask Christ to help us to forgive the person that hurt us it becomes a lot easy to do. And if Jesus can forgive our sins shouldn’t we do the same?

Before the act of forgiveness can begin, there is the inward struggle of addressing the topic. Because letting go of pain and forgiving the responsible party involves both examining the wound and summoning the desire to move past anguish. Beyond even that, there is the seductive tinge of self-righteousness that comes with carrying a grudge (You hurt me. You should beg for my grace.) Rather than forgiving those who unjustly convicted him as Jesus did just before he died on a cross, the injured party would rather cry out to God, ““Forgive them not, Father, for they knew what they did!”

To live out our faith and confront our own suffering, we have to look in the mirror and ask hard questions…

Do we actually want to forgive? If not, why?

These questions form the root of the problem. As with all matters of the self, the ability to admit an issue comes first. Does a victim of bullying even want to forgive the bully? The injured party will likely feel this is unnecessary work since s/he isn’t at fault. Shouldn’t the bully apologize? The natural answer would be yes, but what if the apology never happens? The victim of the slight has his/her own decision to make. Even though time can heal a wound, the scar remains.

Maintaining a grudge requires a certain energy and a desire to indulge the pain. And the urge to engage in long-lasting self-pity may appear surprisingly attractive. That same self-pity can lock us into our current state, denying us the chance to grow spiritually and emotionally. Beyond that, bearing a grudge prevents us from experiencing greater strength and peace.

What does it say about us if we truly can move past this pain? And if we choose not to?

Forgiving does not mean forgetting. A trauma did occur, and that memory will not vanish. Yet we have control over our reaction to pain. Choosing to move past anguish draws upon a strength we often don’t know we have. In making that choice, we frequently surprise ourselves by developing a reservoir of resilience. When we forgive once, we’re more likely to summon the spiritual strength to forgive again.

What do we gain from forgiveness?

In a word, closure. Again, this does not mean erasing the memory. Rather, this is an opportunity to exercise one’s freedom and spiritual maturity and discover a lasting peace. Without releasing the pain, we can become its perpetual victim and rob ourselves of growth. Forgiveness also declares that the grace and mercy that Jesus showed on the cross is alive in us. An added benefit of forgiveness is gaining the ability to help others experience the same outcome.

Do”Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written. “It is mine to avenge, I will repay says the Lord.                       (Romans 12:17-19)

 

Grace and Peace to You My Friends